Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Assaulted by a stream of cataclysm




Hello readers, I am immersed in my December mood that i'm having a strenuous time tugging my body out from this comfort zone. *sigh* It has been a great month, thronged with strands of memories to be framed inside my head. Moving on, i think its time for me to address a warmly apologies to every member of the human race that i once, twice, or continually hurt. I am just a human being, constructed with flaws and only flaws to live with until my very last breath. Imperfection does usher me to the worst side of me sometimes. And then , comes the word 'regret'. I do feel contrite about things that i've done in the past. All the time. And i know the word SORRY is overrated, set aside as the most easiest word to speak nowadays. But trust me people, this time it flows directly from my heart.

So, 2010 did assault me with a stream of cataclysm that i can never wipe them out from my mind. I was emotionally abused by everything. My education, my boyfriend (ex), my friends , myself. I secluded myself from any social activities throughout the year, rummaging for my true self. I abused my parents' trust and i keep on notifying myself not to get their heart wounded ever again. Thanks to my stupidity, my life was slowly crumbling. I put my future at risk and i know i still have time to start mending it with tools that i've abandoned once. Nevertheless, i still had the chance to run across a few new people throughout the journey and i am overjoyed! I was sprinkled with awareness and i know i've changed. On top of that, i finally followed the white light and now i am no longer coated by the weather from the blues. *phewww* Let's say, 2010 is a lonely year for me. #foreveralone

Now that this year is so closed to its funeral, so closed to its expiry date, i can finally inhale a scent of 2011! This January, it will be a pit start for me to abolish my mistakes. Time for me to carve the blunt edge of my life and not jeopardize my future anymore. That is my oath ! I raised my white flag long ago, not wanting to wander with no directions, or live my life aimlessly. I don't want to be the girl that will be getting my one feet off the ground, relying on some decaying stick to hold on to. I am no longer that kind of person. I think it is rather futile for me to be listing out my resolutions and mortified at the end of 2011 for being the same old creep. I'll just keep it to myself.

Enough with that . I am off to bed . Nights!



6 comments:

Rebelle said...

happy new year 2011 sara!
let bygone be bygone and lets start a new one..
enjoy yourself..
don't think too much about the past..
change the future so u'll not be like 'sara 2010' anymore..

(:

Filzah.R said...

heyyy babe!
amaaaazing post, well as usual.
YOU NEED TO BE AN AUTHOR OR SOMETHING!=D
xxx

sara lisa said...

rebelle- thank u! knowing ur such a loyal reader, it means so much to me. heyyy add me up on fb or something. we definitely need to get to hve some chitchat or smtg! =D

filzah- thanks love!! and i should be saying the same thing to u too babe

sara lisa said...

*need to have

petite girl said...

sara! just be youuu.regardless of what people say ok.

happy new year babe!

sara lisa said...

thanks darlingg!

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